Q) What is the biggest regret of your student life?

 Always trying to fit in the cool groups by bringing the pseudo me in ( like : 1) pretending to like a certain kind of music ( mostly the so called cool people like rap , so pretending to like rap while i hated it THE most , ie; i like it now ) 2) Posing a fake family dynamic and many more ) giving false info about the true me , not giving proper likes of myself , pretending to be someone , who i was not truly , and kinda going with the flow , that if they say they like Anime ( even tho i would not worry care less about it , i would go have read thru summaries of a particular anime they talk about , to be included in the talk ) ( ie; i don’t like anime now also ) ( i know right , i would go to such extent that , sometimes i used to wonder that do i really like it or not ) ( i would kinda forget my true self due to the pseudo me posed in most of my time ) . now when i look back , i just remember being the most happy when i connected with those who valued the true me , where i could be who i am truly , no matter what my faults are , and i only spent 5–6% of time with these people , and now too i am only still connected with these people not those so called cool people . at the end , even that time , i had no fun being around them , no connections right now with them , just forgot my true self for a while , it just seems like a entirely new level of time waste , and i barely got that 5–6% time i spent with those valuable people are still remembered in simple words 94 - 95% time spent in my olden days were just spilled into the fire , while being constantly poured with extra oil ( the constant embarrassment of not knowing a particular thing the so called cool people liked , not for bullying someone for fun ) , now i kinda do regret the point of making the decision to be part of the cool group.

BE THE YOU , YOU LIKE , IF PEOPLE DON'T LIKE YOU , FOR WHO YOU TRULY ARE , THEN CHANGE THE PEOPLE NOT YOURSELVES , WHEN YOUR TRUE BASE FOUNDATION RESEMBLES YOUR HIDDEN PAST , WHICH CERTAINLY IMPORTANT TO YOI , AS YOU HAVE DIGNIFIED YOUR LEVEL ABOVE OR BELOW THAT RIGHT NOW , WHICH IS CRUCIALLY IMPORTANT TO YOU , TO KEEP REMINDING YOURSELF ABOUT WHO YOU WERE AND FROM WHERE YOU BEGUN . RETAINING A LINK WITH WHO YOU WERE IS EXPONENTIALLY VITAL AS YOUR CURRENT SELF MATTERS TO YOU. SO IF ANYONE DEMANDS YOUR TRUE FOUNDATION TO BE ERASED IN ORDER TO BE IN CONTACT WITH THEM . IT'S NOT YOU , WHO HAVE TO ERASE YOUR COMPLETE PAST JUST FOR THE SAKE OF A SYNTHETIC CONTACT WITH A PERSON WHO DOES'NT RESPECT YOUR EMOTIONS AND BINDS BY TO PLAY WITH THEM . THIS IS ABSOLUTELY NOT EQUIVALENT TO YOUR TOUCH WITH YOUR YOUR PAST YOU.

i kinda look back at those days , and laugh at the irony of life ,

We cried for someone who didn’t love us , on the shoulder of someone who did love us. wow ! life is truly not that easy when we are easily influenced by others . Life is a difficult game to play .

~Manas Seetharama